What’s this?  A new posting?  It’s only been like…6or 7 months since the last one.  Why now?

Well, I’m glad you asked, let me explain…

So we’ve found a church, sort of.  It doesn’t meet all of our criteria but it does hit some of the big ones, so we’re here for now.  And by here, I mean Hope Community Church (I’ll save my description for a later date).  Since the new year, our pastor has been doing this series which has me thinking a lot lately.

Me…thinking…shocking, I know.

Pastor Jim has been talking about vision.  God’s vision for us, our vision for our lives, and I’ve been feeling a little blind.  He’s talking about how it’s not enough for Christians to sit back and enjoy the ride.  Not enough to talk about how blessed we are with our jobs, finances, family, friends.  God has a vision for our lives, to be fishers of men and each of us needs to live up to that vision.  We need to see people the way God see’s them, see what is and what could be and fill the gap.

Nothing like a rousing sermon to remind you what a slacker you are and make you feel like a loser.

I blame my friends really.  I have a bunch of spiritual over achiever friends and they’re killing the curve.  Let’s see, one friend planted and is the pastor of a church in Austin, other set of friends are planting and growing a church in Austin (what’s with all these gardening references?), one couple leads the children’s ministry in a church.  Don’t forget the one who works for a Christian non-profit (he and his wife used to work for the church), all the ones who volunteer at the church, the one who single-handedly saved a village in Zimbabwe…no?  Ok the last one I made up, but seriously this is what I’m contending with.

And no, I’m not trying to compete with everyone but I am around a lot of people who have a pretty clear vision of what they should be doing, and I don’t.

Hello…I have no vision. Is that not alarming to anyone?  Because it sure worries the crap out of me.  Seriously, what am I doing?  Floating around hoping I’ll stumble onto my purpose in life?  This does not seem like the best and most efficient use of life.

Floating bad, purpose, goal, vision, good.  And how to I go about figuring out what those are though?  Pastor Jim says we should pray, not for vision, but to “see people the way God sees them.”  It’s not about us, it’s about God’s vision for us.

Fine, fine.  I’m all for God’s vision.  He will have a far better idea on what I should be doing than I do, I totally agree with that.  But here’s where I get stuck.

I can easily list some things I’m good at, but there’s a line you pass when you figure out what it is you should be doing with yourself.  It’s more than just being “good” at something.

So I’ve been stuck with these thoughts running around in my head, and the worst part is, I don’t think it’s something I can figure out on my own.  It’s not like a puzzle or something I can figure out if I spend enough time thinking and trying.

I talked to my husband after another uplifting Sunday sermon, and his helpful advice was to pray and wait.  Awesome, I’ll hurry up and get on that waiting.

I asked him what he thought his “vision” was and he didn’t really know either.  I wondered if it has to do with writing in some form, because duh, he’s really good at it.  And I think he has an interesting perspective.  Not that I always agree with what he’s saying, but still.  He wants to write a novel, a series of novels, which I think would be amazing, but I also think there’s something really special about when he blogs.

So I say, maybe you should focus on writing more.  And he says, I’m too busy.  And I say, no you’re not, we just watch too much TV.  Commit to writing three posts a week for a month and let’s see what happens.  I’ll help you stay focused.  I’ll do it with you.

So here I am…committed to writing three posts a week so I can encourage my husband and his gift, calling, vision, plan, whatever you’d like to call it.  I think he has a good mix of being good at writing and that something else that can morph your talents into vision and purpose.

Yep…that’s it.  That’s the entire reason for my post.

Did I disappoint you?  Did you think I was writing because maybe that was my purpose in life?  Too bad.

I’ll be over here praying and waiting about the vision thing all the while I post three times a week.

I’ll also secretly hope my talent for writing and blogging has been dormant and this “selfless” exercise for my husband will awaken a latent talent and I’ll be rocketed into internet super stardom with lots of fans and tons of money…more than tons of money, and I’ll live happily ever after with fancy shoes, massages, and generous donations to various charities.  Of course this is always my hope it has nothing to do with blogging, it could be knitting for all I care if my first scarf hadn’t turned out like a giant triangle.

In case blogging super stardom doesn’t happen by Thursday, check back and keep me company over here at MissVida and pop in on Zachie at ZacharyForrest.com.